Fallen Even In Death

The Queen's Meme #60

2010-11-15T14:23:00.001-05:00

1. When I'm 60 I hope to know more about ____________ and less about __________.
~Love & Hate

2. At my 60th birthday party, I can only invite 3 people. They are....
~ Scott, Carly and Mom *I wish*

3. "To me old age is always fifteen years older than I am" said Bernard Baruch.
What do you consider old age?
~60

4. Tom Stoppard was overheard saying, "Age is a high price to pay for maturity."
What does "maturity" mean to you at any age?
~It means acting like an adult and doing the right things in life.

5. Joan Rivers said "Looking fifty is great… if you're sixty."
Do you worry about age lines and wrinkles?
How do you plan to preserve your wonderful selves?
~Looks Don't matter time makes them fade and you can burn through money over it. There are better ways to spend that money.

6. Comment on this quote by Euripides
"If we could be twice young and twice old we could correct all our mistakes."
~Maybe but in doing so we would make new ones.

7. Pablo Picasso said, "One starts to get young at the age of sixty and then it's too late."
What do you do now to stay young and enjoy your life?
~I live for me.

Manic Monday #226

2010-11-15T14:14:00.004-05:00

What is your favorite, can't-do-without beauty product?
~I would have to say my black eyeliner.

Have you ever colored your hair? What do you think about men coloring their hair and/or facial hair?
~Yes I have, and I have no problem with that.

What is your favorite outfit that you own? What makes it so special to you?
~My favorite is this black tank, Blue jeans with a gold emblem on the butt and my skull zipper sweater. I just love the way they look on me.

Unconscious Mutterings Week 407

2010-11-14T15:10:00.001-05:00

Freezing :: Blanket

Bikers :: Bar

Infrequently :: Pee

Mickey :: Mouse

School:: House

Textile :: Floor

Obstinate :: ??

Guard :: Wall

Release :: Capture

Authentic :: Real

Foggy Mind, Foggy Thoughts.

2010-11-13T08:46:00.003-05:00

Everything is so messed up in my head. I have so many thoughts racing. I am very tired of people telling me to stop trying to save everyone it's not my job and some people can't be saved they just go down in flames. Well guess what? It makes me feel good! I feel like I am actually doing something that matters in this gray world. Oh well shit I guess they are right...

Why? because I am feeling more and more that I am living my life for others and not myself. I feel like there are too many people who depend on me and most shouldn't be. There is two people (and a fur baby) I MUST take care of above all. Then there are a FEW and I do mean DAMN FEW who I will lift up in time of need and will always be there for, as long as they understand that the well being of Scott, Champagne and myself come first.

I am NOT a well person, not at all... I have many mental and physical issues that are pulling me down and I am not dealing with. So there is a change coming and it's coming damn fast. I am sorry but 27 years of super girl is DONE. I am locking her away and only will my true friends get her in there time of need. I need to sit down and decide what truly makes me happy and what i want to do. I know that Photography, it makes me happy, Dolling/Pixeling it makes me happy, reading, it makes me happy, coloring, it makes me happy and Farmville/Frontierville it MOST defiantly makes me happy.

So? Well leave me to do them... I am not at your beck and call, I am not here in this world to serve you, fuck that I don't have personal rug slave tattooed on my head. If I say no, it means NO and no amount of begging and pleading is going to change my mind. I need to stand up and back my NO's instead of wilting.

Far too long have I neglected Carly, The dolling community, my photography and more, sorry but it's the truth. I cam to TN to have a life and by Goddess I will have it, whether it upsets people who think I am a slave or not.

Saturday Six – Your Guess Is As Good As Mine!

2010-11-13T08:39:00.002-05:00

Tea or Coffee?
Ha both! I switch off!

Summer or Winter?
Winter, it's warm soup season.

Flight or Fancy?
Come again?

Biscuits or cakes?
Cakes... most defiantly cakes, so sweet so yummy.

Mac or PC?
I used to use a MAC, but now I am all about the PC.

Grizzly Bear or Cuddly Bear?
Grizzly Bear, I want something that I can train to protect myself and my property.

I'm a Person and Must be Labeled

2010-11-09T14:14:00.004-05:00

Taken form my Carly :D

Stereotypes that apply to me.

I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm a GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, so I WILL go to hell.
I take ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth or emo.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER or ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I have Big BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly.
I'm a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so I MUST be fat.
I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naïve.
I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
I don't like the SUN so I MUST be an albino.
I couldn't hurt a FLY, so I MUST be a pussy.
I have ARTISTIC TALENT, so I MUST think little of those who don't.
I don't like to be in a BIG GROUP, so I MUST be anti-social.
I have a DIFFERENT sense of HUMOR, so I MUST be crazy.
My hair gets GREASY a lot, so I MUST have no hygiene skills.
I read Comics, so I MUST be a loser.
I am a FANGIRL so I MUST be a crazy, obsessed stalker.
I'm INTELLIGENT so I MUST be weak.
I am AMERICAN so I MUST be obese, loud-mouthed and arrogant.
I'm DISABLED, so I MUST be on Welfare.
I'm WHITE, so I MUST be responsible for everything going wrong on the planet: past, present, and future.
I don't like YAOI or YURI, so I must be a HOMOPHOBE.
I care about the ENVIRONMENT...I MUST be a tree hugging hippie.
I CHAT ONLINE, I MUST be having cyber sex.
I like CARTOONS, so I MUST be IMMATURE.
I like READING, so I MUST be a LONER.
I have my OWN spiritual ideology, therefore I MUST be WRONG or MISGUIDED.
I am WICCAN, so I MUST be a SATANIST.
I DISAGREE with my government, so I MUST be a TERRORIST.
I'm A WITCH, so I MUST be and OLD HAG and fly on a broomstick and I MUST worship the devil.
I'm FAT, therefore I MUST hate myself.
I'm NOT CHRISTIAN so I MUST just need converting.
I AM FRIENDS WITH A CUTTER, so I MUST be a CUTTER too.
I CRY EASILY, so I MUST be a wimp.
I'm a PERFECTIONIST so I MUST check everything ten times, then burst into tears at one mistake.

I'M A PERSON AND MUST BE LABELED.

The Queen's Meme #59

2010-11-09T13:56:00.002-05:00

The Fire Meme

1. You are stranded on a desert island. There is only one match left in the matchbox. What would you use it for?
To set fire to the island maybe someone would see it before it killed me, if not problem solved at least I wont starve to death.

2. Do you burn bridges in relationships?
No, but it seems other's burn them with me...

3. Name one thing you'd like to set on fire today.
Charter

4. Have you ever burned a cupcake?
If someone says they haven't they must be a lier...

5. If you had your choice and could change nature's ways, instead of smoke and lava, what should spew out of volcanoes?
Yummy cream soda.

6. When is the last time you used a Fire Extinguisher?
I never have.

7. Have you ever known anyone with a fiery uncontrollable temper? How did you handle it?
My brother in law. You just walk away.

8. You are with your significant other. What song are you singing around the campfire?
Kumbya

9. What is the one thing you'd gladly leave IN your house in case of fire.
My porn collection, I'm over it.

10. When is the last time you got fiery fighting mad?
It's been a few years, but it was bad, I mean police almost called bad.

11. Do you believe in hell?
I am not really sure. I believe in reincarnation, and I believe that bad people come back as something truly hellish for them.

12. Do you or have you ever smoked?
I do not smoke and I do not like it. I get bronchitis easily and it hurts bad to be around smoke. Plus I feel like I am being smothered by it and I can't get it off my skin.

Two 4 Tuesday

2010-11-09T13:32:00.004-05:00

Uneven – Flat

This is my "Two 4 Tuesday" entry. I combined both into one picture. What you are looking at is the electric meter on the back of my complex. They are flat against the wall but the bump out making the flat panel uneven.

Manic Monday #225

2010-11-08T03:49:00.004-05:00

It's autumn, what do you like best?
~Now that I am in the south I love the color of the leaves and when I am out driving around I love to see the hugh leaf piles and fight the urge to park the car and jump in them. :)

Do you eat chestnuts, berries or anything else free to be found in nature? Give us a recipe.
~Nothing... Yet! ;)

Do you have special autumn memories?
~No not really, but I have relized now that I am in the south California skipped over Fall and Spring.

Unconscious Mutterings

2010-11-08T03:46:00.002-05:00

Everything :: Nothing

China :: Doll

Essence :: Spirit

Immediate :: Now

Obstruct :: Justice

Force :: G

Constellation :: O'Ryan's Belt

Intuitive :: Knowall

Complain :: Bitch

Train :: Plane

Getting To Know Me... The REAL Me.

2010-11-08T03:44:00.001-05:00

*Basics*
Name?: Jaynita Ann
Age?: 27
Birthday?: March 26
Zodiac Sign?: Aries

*Past*
Where were you born?: Hollywood
Do you still live in the same house you grew up in?: Nope
Where's your second "home": TN
What was your best birthday?: My 21st
Where was your favorite place to go on vacation?: Nashville

*Appearance*
What is your height?: 6 feet
Do you wish you were shorter/taller?: I like my Height...
What color eyes do you have?: Green
Do you wear glasses/contacts?: Contacts
Ever done anything to your hair (e.g highlights, colored, permed)?: Colored it Bright Red with Bleached Bangs.
What is your favorite body part?: Hands
Do you think you are attractive?: Somedays I do.
Would you ever get cosmetic surgery?: Hell Mother Fuckin' NO

*Personality*
Are you more comfortable in new or known situations?: Known
Do you prefer being in a group or by yourself?: Group
You are happiest when you are?: Sending Time With Scott.
Do you have more guy friends or girl friends?: Girl friends
Are you dependable?: I like to believe so!
Do you ever think it is right to lie?: Only if it's to spare someone hurt, pain or embaressment.
Would you ever cheat on your significant other?: Hell No
Are you a jeolous person?: I was...
Do you have a positive or negative attitude towards life?: I try to have a positive, but sometimes the negitive feelings creep in!
Do you have any obsessive or compulsive traits?: Yes, I am a Sorter, I can't even eat Skittles without sorting them into colors and flavors.
Do you easily get depressed/sad?: Yes
Are you a creative person?: Yes
What's your life's ambition?: To be a photographer.

*Favorites*
Color?: Pink, Teal & Black
Month?: October
Season?: Winter
Weather?: Rainy
Drink (alcoholic or non-alcoholic): Vodka, Jim Beam Black, Sweet Tea, Rasberry Tea or Sam's Cola..
Music?: New Age
Radio Station?: Don't like radio, Radio Jocks Piss me off.
Movie?: Nightmare Before Christmas, Corpse Bride, Halloween Tree, But I'm a Cheerleader or A league of Their Own
Fast food restaurant?: Taco Bell, Checkers or Zaxby's
Messenger (AIM, YAHOO, MSN)?: NONE
Fruit?: Lime
Type of food?: Beef, the rarer the better.
Subject?: Writing and Visual Arts
Actor?: Don't really have one I run out to see.
Actress?: Nicole Kidman

*This or That?*
Dog or cat?: Cat
Hot or cold?: Cold
Music or T.V.?: Music
Christmas or Halloween?: Halloween
Staying home or going out?: Staying at home
Hanging out w/friends or w/bf/gf?: With husband
Lake or pool?: Pool
Rain or snow?: Rain
Chicken or meat?: Meat
MTV or VH1?: VH1
Pop or Rock?: Pop Rock!
Country or Hip-Hop?: Country
MP3 player or IPOD?: MP3 Player
Singing or dancing?: Singing
On-line or over the phone?: Phone!
Pop-corn or candy?: Candy
Flying or swimming?: Swimming
Taking pictures or being in pictures?: Taking Them!
Chick-flicks or action?: Action
Horror or comedy?: Horror
Baseball or football?: Baseball
Cheerleading or band?: Eww Nether!
English or Math: English
Test or essay?: Essay

*Have You Ever*
Gone skinny dipping?: Nope
Lied to get out of trouble?: Yes
Talked behind your friend's back?: Nope
Purposely hurt someone?: Nope
Purposely left someone out?: Nope
Cheated on a test/quiz?: Yes
Been to a concert?: Yes
Felt like you were dying?: Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?: Yes
Met someone you talked to on IM in person?: Yes
Dated someone older then you?: Yes
Younger then you?: Yes
French-kissed?: Yes
Snuck out of the house?: Yes
Snuck into the opposite sex's house?: No
Stalked someone?: Nope
Become obsessed with anyone or anything?: Hell Yes * I love you P!Nk*
Trespassed?: Yes
Stolen anything?: Yes
Sang in public/large group?: Yes
Fallen in front of a lot of people?: No
Tripped someone to embarrass them?: Nope
Spread a false rumor?: Nope
Broken a promise?: Yes

*Today*
How was your day?: Good!
What time is it?: 3:42 am
Talked to someone you haven't in a while?: no
Cried?: no
Did something exciting?: Nope
Learned anything new?: nope
Hugged someone?: Yes
Kissed someone?: Yes
Saw someone special?: Nope

*In Opposite Sex*
Favorite body part?: Eyes
Favorite personality trait?: Makes me Laugh
Something you need?: Unconditional Love
Prefered eye color?: Stupid Question... The heart wants what the heart wants...
Hair color?: See Above
Height?: See Above
Style?: See Above
Muscle or Brains?: Brains
Serious or funny?: A good blend of both.
Are looks important to you?: Nope
Evening date or afternoon date?: Whatever
In groups or single?: Single
Short or long term relationships?: Long

*Last Questions*
Are you happy with your life?: Mostly
Been through any major changes lately?: Yes
Do you live life to the fullest?: I try
Who do you always want in your life?: Scott, Champagne and my Mom.
Believe that your dreams/wishes will come true?: If I work at them.

Welcome Home...

2010-11-08T03:19:00.001-05:00

"Houses... are alive. This is something we know. News from our nerve endings. If we're quiet, if we listen, we can hear houses breath. Sometimes, in the depth of the night, you can even hear them groan. It's as if they were having bad dreams. A good house cradles and comforts, a based one fills us with instinctive unease. Bad houses hate our warmth and our human-ness. That blind hate of our humanity is what we mean when we use the word 'haunted'."

Welcome to My personal Blog "A Blog for grown ups". I have dedicated my theme to one of my Favorite Books and Movies the Diary of Ellen Rimbauer: My Life at Rose Red.

For those that know me Know that my beliefs are rooted deep in Wicca. I believe that Spirits are all around us, Karma is real, and maybe just maybe there is more to this world then meets the eye.

I also believe in the right to speak ones mind. And that is exactly what I plan to do here. This is my blog, which means it will have stuff that spills out from my demented mind... There fore if you offend easily, please spare the world the web space it takes to write a nasty comment and piss off. All that's going to do is make me laugh at your immaturity as I delete the proof of your stupidity (or simply the proof you can’t read)...

Ok now if you are still with me and reading this, I must warn you that I suck at spelling and if I am in a hurry I am not going to waste my time with spell check... Again my blog, no one is forcing you to read it so either shut up and put on your big girl panties *ya boys you too!* or... well you know the rest!